schizophrenia

These days, one word that keeps in my head is about schizophrenia...
And also about Alter Ego (kepribadian ganda) or known as Multiple Personality Disorder...
Do each personality able to communicate to each other?
How can we identify someone has MPD or schizophrenia?
I've been googling to know more about it, but I haven't found something that satisfy me.
In forum.wgaul.com or forum.kafegaul.com, it enriched me about it, but still can not answer my questions
What did make it? I mean what make someone have either Alter Ego or schizophrenia?
Can it be cure?
How to cure it?
I'm desperately wanting to help someone, but I haven't got enough information to help.
It even makes me more sure to take psychology as my major in my post graduate studies.
Human itself is a mistery of life :)
So...If you know information about those hings, please let me know, or also if you know a good site that provide information about it, please let me know.
I'll be very grateful for that.
Thank you

A great song

In this morning devotion, Ms. Maria Theresa (my Colleague from Manila) share something about spiritual dryness and share about the song that she give us this morning.. Check this out!!

Lead me Lord,
Lead me by the hand and make me face the rising sun
Comfort me through all the pain that life may bring
There's no other hope that I can lean upon
Lead me Lord, Lead me all my life

Walk by me
Walk by me across the lonely road of everyday
Take my arms and let Your hand show me the way
Show the way to inside Your love
Lead me Lord, all my life

You are my light, You are the lamp upon my feet.
All the time my Lord I need you there
You are my life. I can not live alone,
Let me stay by your guiding love
All through my life, Lead me Lord...

Lead me Lord
Even though I'd rather go along my way
Help me take the right direction, take your road
Lead me Lord and never leave my side
All my days, All my life

SMILE AWARD..Everyone can have it

This afternoon while I'm blog walking to Mbak Ely site, I found an award that she dedicated to all of her readers...
And this award is a great award..
SMILES AWARD....
In these days, while everything seems to be difficult just to survive, It's good to reflect things that can make us smile...
And I dedicated this award also for all of my readers, specially for my friends in my friends' list. You can have this award (if you haven't get it yet), but don't forget to put the banner in your posting and write down the things that can make you smile...
And could you please give comment under this post (add link), so I can visit you sometime :)

Okay let me begin with the things that makes me smile today...
1. I received an email from Casper, my lost brother from Norway..Thank God we still can contact each other :)

2. My son's act and laugh..every time he laugh, he always can make others laugh with him also... I love him so much...

3. My fam (My father and My husband specially) who stood behind me in every difficulties that I have

4. Hear good news from a lawyer, friends of my father, about the problem that me and my partner have in our business

5. Being blessed with health for me and my fam..

6. Having great friends that willingly visit my blog :)

7. God that loves me and guides me always in everything that I do. Praise the Lord :)

And also there's other things that always can make me smile..
1. If my students understand the thing that I taught them. If I can help them in their problems, If I can inspire them to reach higher in their life, to value their life
2. NO WAR ANYMORE... I remember John Lennon's song "Imagine" I really wish that there will be no more war anymore in this world..(You may say I'm a dreamer..but I'm not the only one..I hope someday...)
3. Fulfill my 101 things to do before I die (but I still stuck at wishlist number 58..hehehe)
4. Able to travel all around the world with my fam
5. So many other things but basically to fulfill my live with good things, good friends, good memories and good times :)

So, for you friends, you may have this award but don't forget to smile...
Let's make the world a beautiful place to living started with smile and love to each other :)

Mas Fahmi Frizzy Blog

At the beginning of this long weekend, I promise to Mas Fahmi to review his blog..
So here it goes..

1. About the appearance
It's a simple and minimalism blog, and through it simplicity people can get information better. it has some banner about adsense and stuff but how he put it not ruin the posting it self as a main body

2. Content
The content is about anything that happened around him, some about blog tricks and computer and self management even for those alcoholic person *smile* I still have a lot af things to learn from him and from the others blog owner who can put great posting :)

3. Reply response
One thing I salute from him is his response to anyone who visited his blog ( I admit sometime for me, it still took a while for me to reply all of my blog visitor..Sorry for that guys..)

Okay I think that's all that I want to review now..
Mas Fahmi, hope you like it... :)
It's true from the bottom of my heart :p

Thanks To Facebook and Internet connection

Probably you already read my posting about My Lost Brother...
And right now just two days from it, I got the email address and his cellphone...
How come?
Okay, last saturday when I was googling about this brother of mine..I also join Facebook
After I joined it, I receive friends invitation from my brother ex girl friend.. (But she also didn't have his new email address..)
Thank God on Sunday, Bredo, Casper's little brother joined my friend at Facebook and this morning I got Casper's new email and cellphone...
I really happy to live in an era where distance and country boundaries are not an issue anymore...
Where everything can be reached just with internet connection...
Praise the Lord :)
Okay..I want to send email first to Casper..

Looking for my lost brother..

Have you ever has someone that you care so much and just lost contact for sometime?
Although you miss them, but you don't know how to contact them...??
Right now I experience that...
Some part of it was my fault...to be so busy with my self and not maintaining my relationship...
Okay let me tell you from the begining...

Today, I just arrived at my home town, Malang..
And then as I promise to my partner, Mas Indra then I start to made a facebook account
After I created my account, I found my host brother's girlfriend (or at least she used to be his girl friend..coz I didn't see my brother picture on her account...)
I'm so happy to be able to contact with her again and finally with my host brother (because we have been lost contact this past 2 years)

Last time Casper (my brother) call me from Norway when Alex was born, 2 years ago and since then I have problem with my HP and can not contact him anymore..
I tried his email, I've tried to contact him through Friendster, but all of this years..I didn't receive any news from him again...
Usually every Christmas (at least) we contact each other... I count there's been 2 Christmas that I haven't hear anything from him...
Some "bad thinking" across to my mind...I'm afraid something bad has done...
So I'm start googling (Thanks God we live at the age where everything can be found in internet..)

But the thing that I could find is his journey to China (when he is still at collage..I've already known about it because that is the last thing that we discuss before I ghive birth to Alex..)
And also some of his work, some essay and articles that he made...
I'm unable to find how he is now...

Right now, I just hoping that Wanda (Casper girl friend..or ex girlfriend..) could be kindness to inform me anything about him...

For you my friends, who read this post and have friends or family at Norway, could you please help me to find anything or any news about my brother...
His name is Casper Ronning Molthe from Vestby Norway but last time I heard he moved to Oslo. He should be a legal officer right now because he taking Law back at the college.

That's all for now..Thank you..

A-Z Tag

I have a tag from wyne.. And I think it's a good way to know our new friends :)
So here it is...Hopefully by doing this can make our friendship stronger :)

A-Attached or Single? Attached to a great man :).
B-Best Friend? a lot (Yoyo, Wita, Ocha, Sheweng, Tessa, Riri, and soooo many other..)
C-Cake or pie? Both..hahaha..I love to eat
D-Day of choice? Saturday
E-Essential item? My glassess (I'm useless without it :p)
F-Favorite color? All colors that match well
G-Gummy bears or Worms? Gummy Bears..
H- Home. Surabaya, Indonesia
I- Indulgence- Books and Laptop
J-June or July? June..school holiday :)
K-Kids? One named Alex :)
L-Life is not complete without- God, Family and Friends
M-Marriage date- January 10th 2006
N-Number of magazine subscriptions? None :(
O-Orange or apple? Orange
P-Phobias? Cats...(hiii...)
Q-Quotes? " Everything will be beautiful on its time"
R-Reason to smile? My husband, My son, My friends and My Fam, My students also :)
S-Season of choice? In Indonesia only dry season and wet season and both of it have it own characteristic... I prefer season of mangoes fruits :p
T-Tag 5 people – Ardi, Mahen, Ms.Green, Basha, Mas Hangga (semoga belum pernah dapet yang ini)
U-Unknown facts about me- Selfish, Clumpsy, Weepy (kok jelek-jelek thok ya :p)
V-Vegetables? Everything. I'm Omnivore :p
W-Worst habit? Feel superior if can do something at the last minute hehehe..Last minute Girl and also easily forget things..
X-X-ray or Ultrasound? Ultrasound
Y-Your favorite foods? Bakso (meatballs), noodle, soto, steak
Z-Zodiac sign- Virgo Girl

Fiuhh..it's finish already. For those I tag...It's your turn to do it :)

ALEX's FIRST WEEK AT SCHOOL

Ibu-ibu muda mungkin pernah merasakan deg-degan ketika anak pertamanya mulai akan masuk sekolah...
Merasa kuatir bisa ga ya anak kita beradaptasi..

Mulai minggu lalu anakku sudah bersekolah di Playgroup BUAH HATI (satu yayasan dengan CITA HATI, tempatku mengajar...) dan sepertinya aku lebih deg-degan daripada Alex :p
Sebagai tindakan preventif biar dia ga rewel, Alex sudah beberapa kali aku ajak ke Buah Hati (teruama waktu dulu masih ada Ayao..) dengan harapan biar pas hari pertamanya dia dah ga mereasa asing dengan tempat itu.

Pada hari pertama, aku ikut antar Alex ke sekolah dan aku temanin dia selama pelajaran(bela-belain ijin dari kantor...hehehe..)...

Wah pertamanya Alex lebih suka main perosotan diluar dan ga mau masuk kelas. Ketika aku paksa gendong masuk, dia sempat nangis, tapi setelah liat banyak mainan...ya udah deh maen terus....Sampe nyuekin Ms. Retno yang lagi njelasin. Setelah pelajaran pertama selesai dan masuk Play Time..Alex sudah mulai mau ditinggal, tapi masih kudu ditemenin di satu ruangan yang sama.

Pada hari kedua, Alex sudah lebih kenal dengan teman2nya dan Miss-Miss nya sehingga udah ga terlalu nyariin. Untungnya juga Alex sudah terbiasa untuk mandiri dan selalu membereskan mainan2nya sendiri..jadi ketika di sekolah, hal itu juga dilakuinnya di sekolah. Pada pelajarannya yang pertama, baby sitternya masih nemenin di dalem tapi waktu Play time dan pelajaran selanjutnya baby sitternya hanya ngawasi dari luar ruang kelas.
Bahkan pada hari ketiga Alex sudah bisa ditinggal sendiri, ga ditemenin lagi di dalam kelasnya dan baby sitternya hanya menunggu di ruang tunggu depan...

Kalo sore sepulang aku dari kantor, aku tanya Alex "Diajarin apa Lex?" jawabnya "kelkel" (hehehe..maksudnya mo ngomong circle... :p) terus dia nglakuin gerakan2 yang bikin bingung papa-mamanya..eee...ternyata siangnya dia senam di sekolahan..hehehe...

I don't want to put high expectation for Alex now, coz I realize that this age is still his play time..but at least by going to school he learns to socialize and to share thins with others.. Dia belajar mandiri dan ga "mbok-mboken" lagi ama mama-papanya.. :)

SUMMER IN SEOUL by Ilana Tan

Hmm...sekarang aku mo review satu buku yang aku baca semalam...
Ceritanya mungkin sudah pernah anda lihat di layar lebar (at least my son's nanny said that she already watched it...)
What makes me bought this book is the name of the author...
Once I read her books with title "Autumn in Paris" and it one of the books that can make me cry and cry..and cry whenever i remember the story...(just like Cintapucino or Bellamore..another title of great books) even my sister who is not as weepy as me, cried when she read this book...
So when I saw this book, I just grabbed it and pay it without read the cover story of it..
And...

Two thumbs up for Illana Tan... (you become one of my fave author..:>)
She able to describe the story smoothly...and able to make a romantic scene that makes me dreamed about it :p
It's so wonderful...
Thank God it is happy ending, so I don't need to go to school with swollen eyes :p
The story begin with a girl (half korean half indonesian) who accidentally involve "in relation" with one of Korean Superstar...
Why accidentally ??? hehehe..read it yourself :p
I highly recommend you to read it...
Romantic...
Specially the scene on hospital... Soooo touching...so sweet...
Now I'm still search another series of it...the title is Winter in Tokyo...
I'm wondering what is it about..is it sad ending like autumn in Paris or happy ending like Summer in Seoul????
For Illana Tan..I salute you...

Wishlist Award

When I first open my blog today, I was so happy coz I have new award from my friend, Ms. Green...
And as usual, every award has some task to do....
So here is my answer for the task...
List of my birthday wishes...(I should list 15 and most of it are my new years resolution :p)
Okay..here we go...






1. My family blessed with health all through this year. Amien
2. My family blessed with many good fortune :) Amien.Amien
3. I'm able to have my weight just like before my marriage :p (coz now..so fat..hehehe...)
4. Able to be a great teacher for my students...a teacher that inspire and stays in their hearts :)
5. Able to be a good wife and a good mother...
6. Taking a master degree
7. Visit Casper and Molthe family in Vestby&Oslo, Norway (Miss you bro..I love you..)
8. Meet again with Ayao in her hometown in China (Miss you so much partner..)
9. Alex able to have good education in the best school
10. Mas Ayok business run well
11. PGD omzet reach Rp. 2.000.000.000. Amien..
13. My business plan with Willy can be run well
14 Blog ini bisa dapet PR = 8 (At least...still struggle for it)
15. Have many new good friends and able to maintain our friendship
16...so many other things actually...:p

Okay now, I will pass this award to some of my good friends
1. Ardi yang senantiasa senang membantuku (tapi kayaknya kamu dah dapet yang sama dari Mas Hangga ya Di..) jadi kuteruskan ke yang lain aja...

1. Mas Indra, my business partner...fill it as a relaxation, mas :p
2. Clay man
3. Mas Fahmy-Frizzy
4. Bli Sudarma
5. Wyne
6. scf (Hopefully you can work in Indonesia:> )
7. Mitrariset (makasi dah membantu untuk ngajarin bikin shoutbox..)
8. Mbak Ullie
9. Maxsy's
10. Mbak Tyas (yang blog-blognya keren banget...en inspire me..)

The rules are...
1. Make a list of what you want on your birthday...
2. The list should be 15 numbers
3. Post the image of this award in your posting
4. Give it to 10 friends of yours.

Thank you....

TECHNORATI dan ALEXA ku naek..

Setelah beberapa hari sempat ga buka blog ini...aku seneng banget....ternyata dapet pr dari Ms. Green terus Technorati dan Alexaku juga naek...
Hehehe..emang masih jauh sih kalo dibandingin temen2 sekalian....
But at least it show me that in this one month I've done something worthed :)
Thanks for all of you who willingly come to my blog and give comments..
Thanks also for those who had visited my blog...
Thank you.. :)

Tony Wolf books for Kids

Sekarang lagi pengen keranjingan baca novel lagi..(kesenangan yang jarang kulakukan semenjak Alex lahir..abis lebih enak maen ama Alex :p )
Tapi untungnya...suamiku juga seorang bookaholic jadi kalo kami berdua ke toko buku..wah pasti borong beberapa buku yang akan langsung abis dilahap..hehehe...
Sekarang sepertinya anakku Alex juga sudah ketularan...
Setiap bangun tidur pasti dia cari buku2nya yang penuh gambar2 itu, ato sepeda ato scooternya...
Dan kalo alex sudah pegang buku berarti entah papa nya mamanya atau tantenya ato siapapun yang ada di dekat situ juga harus ikut baca buku favoritnya dia...hehehe..
Sambil dia akan tebakin "Ini apa hayo??" ato "Alex 'nya ula-ula..mama 'nya ga??"
Alex terutama suka dengan buku karangannya Tony Wolf...
Kelebihannya adalah di buku ini menyediakan banyak gambar dengan vocab bahasa inggris dan bahasa Indonesia...
Dan yang terutama...
HARD PAPER...

hehehe...untuk anak seumuran Alex itu jadi syarat pertama untuk membelikan buku..
Dulu waktu Alex baru berumur seminggu, papanya sempat belikan buku 365 Tales about Duck dan sedari bayi dah kubacakan buku itu..jadi kalo anak lain tidur dengan lagu nina bobo..Alex tidur dengan sura mamanya yang baca buku :p
Nah tapi Tales about Duck ini cuman hard cover...dalemnya kertas biasa yang full colour....
En..waktu Alex umur 8 bulanan buku itu sudah ampir ancur deh.... Karena Alex kalo buka suka seenaknya sendiri..hehehe...
Jadi sekarang kalo mo belikan Alex buku pasti cari yang dalamnya Hard Paper...
Nah dari Tony Wolf ini ada beberapa serinya
1. About Farm
2. About Sea
3. About City
4. About Woodland
5. Fairy Tale...
trus ada lagi ga ya..setauku baru itu...
Buku ini bagus kok..jadi untuk para orang tua yang ingin mengajarkan suka membaca sejak dini ke anak2 nya bisa jadikan buku ini sebagai referensi...
And you will amaze on how our kids can absorb new information immediately...
Yang seri Sea..Alex baru beli Sabtu kemarin dan dalam 2 hari ini...udah beberapa vocab English and Indonesian yang dia hafal...bahkan dia bisa hapal gambar apa saja yang ada di beberapa window....
Apa itu window...??
Beli aja dulu buku ini biar tahu..:)
Cheers..

TWILIGHT BY Stephenie Meyer...

Sabtu kemarin aku beli sebuah buku yang "highly recommended" by my students....
Kayaknya anak2 Pastoral Care ku bener2 lagi keranjingan buku ini...
Terus ternyata guru2 dan staf Cita Hati juga lagi pada baca buku ini...
Jadi...
karena penasaran, ahkirnya kubeli ni buku...
Ceritanya kayak buku remaja...
Pertama mo baca dah pesimis..beneran tah bagus??gitu pikirku...
Tetapi dari cara penulisannya, membuat orang jadi tidak ingin berhenti membaca sebelum selesai....
It's more than a romantic story...emang sih tergolong cerita roman..tapi ada actionnya juga..ada superfictionnya..jadi pokoknya keren banget...
Apalagi ada sosok Edward Cullen...(remind me of someone from my past :p) yang wah...keren banget...
Ceritanya sih termasuk fiksi ringan, tetapi sekali lagi bagaimana cara penulisan alurnya yang bikin orang penasaran dan pengen berhenti...
Cerita singkatnya adalah tentang sebuah keluarga vampir yang "vegetarian" maksudnya mereka tidak "minum" darah manusia bahkana hidup di tenah - tengah manusia....

Kemudian salah satu vampir itu jatuh cinta pada seorang gadis manusia....dan secara singkatnya bagaimana mereka berusaha meyakinkan orang lain (keluarga si Edward terutama) bahwa cinta mereka bisa mengalahkan semua perbedaan yang ada...dimana sebuah tekad yang kuat bahkan bisa mengalahkan "kelemahan", bahwa cinta bukan berarti membuat orang yang kita cintai jadi ikut menderita hanya agar orang tersebut sama dengan kita....
Aku terutama suka scene..ketika Edward harus "menyembuhkan" Bella yang telah terkena gigitan vampir....
Akan lebih mudah bagi perjalanan cinta mereka, andaikan Bella dibiarkan jadi vampir...tapi Edward tidak melakukannya...
Bahkan dia berusaha menahan diri agar dalam "proses penyembuhan" itu tidak malah membunuh Bella....
Bagaimana ahkir cerita ini????
Baca sendiri aja....
Aku sendiri penasaran untuk baca lanjutannya yaitu New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking dawn...
Tapi kemarin pas ke toko buku, ternyata pada SOLD OUT :(
Masih masuk daftar inden nih..dan belum tau kapan bakalan dapetnya...
Aduh semoga cepat ya..udah penasaran nih..:)

Nyesel aku..Bukunya ABIS...

Setelah 2 bulan terahkir guru-guru cita hati lagi "demam" Laskar Pelangi, sampe-sampe guru-guru nonton bareng se bioskop....ee..sekarang sepertinya pada keranjingan TWILIGHT series..(at least female teacher)
Nah..setelah "strongly recomended" by my students, I bought this book. Twilight...And indeed makes you unable to put it down before finish...
I bought this book on Saturday, and on Sunday from 3AM until 1 PM I read it, and makes me want to know what happend next...

So yesterday, on Monday I went to Petra Toga Mas to buy another series of it...But do you know what happend?????
THEY SAID..IT ALREADY SOLD OUT!!!
OMG...Last time when I want to buy books and it sold out when there was Harry Potter fever...
Aduh..aduh...ahkirnya aku inden dulu deh...telat sehari...ckckc...dan aku dah di nomor 28...ckck...
Ga sabar pengen tau kelanjutannya...

??2012 is the DOOMS DAY (KIAMAT)???

Last Saturday, I saw a television show that showed someone who gave prophecy about what will happen in this 2009...
For the Indonesian people probably already know about MAMA LAURENT...
She is the one who gave prophecy last Saturday Night..
She answer the question about the rumor in the society about whether the 2012 is the dooms day...
She admitted that all of these years usually she able to "see" what will happen in the future...but its stack at 2012. She admitted that she can not see what will happen in 2013, it seems that there's "curtains" which didn't reveal the future of 2013...

When I saw that with my family...There are some different reaction :
1. My babysitter was panic and regret why she watch that television show..
2. My husband..as calm as he usually... :)
3. My son..kept playing, coz he probably he thought what's the big deal with that :)
4. My self, first shock, I felt that I haven't give or show my best to the people that I love...

Despite of whether it's true or not (and I surrender it all to God, who knows it all..)

But from that, I realize that our life can be easily taken..How short my life is..We don't know where or when or how...but eventually we will die....
And when that moment come...have we live our life in the best way? Have we put our best effort in it? Have we fulfill it with good deeds?
Well, from that case, it strengthen me to write down 101 things I want to do before I die :)
(copycat from Mas Indra-my partner-)
And what is that 101 things?? Well I still listed it now and I stop till number 58...Still think what I want to do again.. :)
When I finish I will publish it then :)
So..just wait and see for it..:)

FALSE ALARM....

Hehehe..couple of weeks ago, I thought I'm gonna have another baby...
Specially during my trips on Jakarta, I was easily get dizzy and vomit...
A part of mine felt happy because I want to have baby girl...
But another part of mine felt not ready yet to have another kid..
I still want to give my est for Alex my baby boy :)
So...

I think God knows what best for me....
And for now...no new siblings yet for Alex :)
Thanks God:)

Vacancy..

I've tried so many times to find someone who wants to work at my place, and no one suits yet..
Iya..susah juga cari orang yang cocok, jadi sambil pasang iklan-iklan lowongan kerja lagi..sekalian aja pasang pengumuman di blog ini...

Buat temen2 kalo ada yang punya temen, sodara yang lagi cari kerja..tolong disambungkan ya...
Silahkan di cek vacancy berikut ini...

Our company, PT Phitagoras Global Duta is a growing consultant company which has operational based in Jakarta and Surabaya. Our core of business is Management Quality Health Safety Environment (QHSE). In order to support our success we need a dynamic person as a

BUSINESS DEVELOPMENT STAFF

Requirements:

1. Female, Single Max 25 years old
2. Having minimum Diploma at any field. Fresh graduates are encourage to apply
3. Able to communicate actively in English
4. Familiar with Microsoft Office and internet application.
5. Having high mobility, hard worker, persistent and tenacious.
6. Having good communication skill
7. Able to work independent as well as in a team
8. Able to work with target
9. Surabaya domicile is preferable
10. Familiar with basic accountancy and tax procedure would be an advantage
11. Unlimited salary

Please send your CV and latest photograph (less than 1 MB) to:

surabaya@phitagoras.co.id

For further information : www.phitagoras.co.id

PR pertama ku

Yach di malam pergantian tahun ternyata dapet PR dari Ardi...hehehe..tumben2an Bu guru dapet PR..jadi ini dah dikerjain secepatnya :)
Silahkan di cek....


1. Dari Mana Blog Kalian Berasal?

Dari hasil pemikiran dan kontemplasi..hehehe...

2. Kapan dilahirkannya blog kalian?

Sekitar bulan September 2008 (lupa tanggalnya..)pertama bikinnya tapi mulai rajin posting ahkir oktober..dan mulai keranjingan 3 minggu belakangan ini...

3. Kesulitan apa saja yang ada saat membuat blog kalian?

Masih berusaha membuat yang bagus..makanya sering tanya2 ama Ardi en temen2 semua..hehehe...Jangan bosen2 ya ngeladeni pertanyaanku...

4. Mengapa membahas topik yang kalian bahas sekarang?

Yach lagi melow aja...Apapun yang terpikir itu yang tertulis di blog ini...

5. Kenapa tampilan blog kalian menggunakan template itu?

Simple en unik..

6. Apa yang pertama kalian lakukan saat blog kalian baru jadi?

Sempat ga keurus beberapa minggu..hehehe...karena belum nemuin senengnya ngeblog...sekarang mah dah psang promosi di mana-mana :)

Nah sekarang aku akan passing award ini ke beberapa temenku :
1. Ms Green
2. Mas Hangga
3. Mbak Tyas
4. Mbak dTeepZ


Syaratnya gampang aja..kerjain 6 soal diatas..
Silahkan.. :)