HAPPY EASTER....

This week is a busy week for Christian or Catholic people..
Specially in Catholic, there's so many ceremony to follow.... (Almost everyday go to church :p)
Starting last Sunday is Palm Sunday
Then last Thursday is White Thursday
Yesterday was Good Friday
Today is Holy Saturday
And tomorrow is.....EASTER SUNDAY !!!!

For you who celebrate it....
HAPPY EASTER FOR YOU...
MAY THROUGH THIS EASTER CAN REMIND US AGAIN TO RENEWED OUR LIVES TO DO HIS LOVE ON EVERYTHING THAT WE DID, WE SAID OR WE THOUGHT....

HAPPY EASTER, FRIEND...

I quote a song that makes me cried when I first heard it...
Crucified
Lied behind the stone
He lived to die
Rejected and Alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground
He took the fall
and thought of me
ABOVE ALL....

The main causes of liver damage are:

Still information from RIRI...
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1. Sleeping too late and waking up too late are main cause.
2. Not urinating in the morning.
3. Too much eating.
4. Skipping breakfast.
5. Consuming too much medication.
6. Consuming too much preservatives, additives, food coloring, and artificial sweetener.
7. Consuming unhealthy cooking oil. As much as possible reduce cooking oil use when frying, which includes even the best cooking oils like olive oil. Do not consume fried foods when you are tired, except if the body is very fit.
8. Consuming raw (overly done) foods also add to the burden of liver.
Veggies should be eaten raw or cooked 3-5 parts. Fried veggies should be finished in one sitting, do not store.
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Berarti intinya.... (dari 2 posting ini..)
Cobalah Hidup Teratur dan Sehat..
Kudu Sarapan tiap harinya
Ga boleh banyak begadang dan bangun telat
Tapi kayak aku yang kagak bisa masak gini...no 6,7 dan 8 susah tuh dilakuinnya :p
(kalo ga ada susternya Alex lebih milih beli makan di luar ato bikin masakan kayak lodeh dan rawon yang akan tahan untuk 2-3 hari..hehehehe...)

BRAIN DAMAGING HABITS

I get this post from my bestfriend, RIRI..Hopefully you can find it important
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1. No Breakfast
People who do not take breakfast are going to have a lower blood sugar level.
This leads to an insufficient supply of nutrients to the brain causing brain degeneration.

2. Overeating
It causes hardening of the brain arteries, leading to a decrease in mental power.

3. Smoking
It causes multiple brain shrinkage and may lead to Alzheimer disease.

4. High Sugar consumption
Too much sugar will interrupt the absorption of proteins and nutrients causing malnutrition and may interfere with brain development.

5. Air Pollution
The brain is the largest oxygen consumer in our body. Inhaling polluted air decreases the supply of oxygen to the brain, bringing about a decrease in brain efficiency.

6. Sleep Deprivation
Sleep allows our brain to rest. Long term deprivation from sleep will accelerate the death of brain cells.

7. Head covered while sleeping
Sleeping with the head covered increases the concentration of carbon dioxide and decrease concentration of oxygen that may lead to brain damaging effects.

8. Working your brain during illness
Working hard or studying with sickness may lead to a decrease in effectiveness of the brain as well as damage the brain.

9. Lacking in stimulating thoughts
Thinking is the best way to train our brain, lacking in brain stimulation thoughts may cause brain shrinkage.

10. Talking Rarely
Intellectual conversations will promote the efficiency of the brain
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Hehehe...setelah baca itu, aku ngerasa bersyukur karena dengan adanya Alex, jadi waktu tidurku lebih teratur. Jam 9 malem dah di alam mimpi..hehehe...
Dan karena doyan makan jadi ga pernah absen sarapan (tapi aku ga suka makanan yang manis2...) :p
Merokok? Kagak pernah. Polusi udara? well, di kota emang susah sih bebas dari polusi :(
Nutup kepala pas tidur? buat apa ya...gak pernah tuh
NO 9 en 10 mah terasah terus karena kudu kasih soal2 yang super duper sulit buat murid2 ku :p
Tapi yang nomor 8 dan no 2 tuh yang dalam praktenya susah dilakuinnya :(

Friends..An Awesome Serial

Have you ever watch "FRIENDS"??

It is an awesome serial...one of the best. Since High School when Wita, My bestfriend told me about this serial..since then I am a big fan of this serial.

It's the story of 6 bestfriends, sometimes there's fight, sometimes they have crush to one another but above all...They keep being friendsone another. How they supports one another through difficult times are awesome. How they willingly to help one another (something rarely happen now..) are touching. The line that they use sometimes so funny, although it seems not ...

It's tremendously funny...It's has a smart humor thing (Maksudnya bukan humor yang slapstik gitu..) It has the value of friendship and family that we can get..It's awesome. And I was so disappointed when they stop to produced it :(

Why do I bring this now? Coz last night I just watched it again, starting from the first episode of the first season...and it can still made me laugh out loud....hahaha...so funny...and sometimes touching... I remember this serial is one of the serial that can make me cry and laugh at the same episode.

I wish they could produce new episode again... :)

Some Survey that I Took

Tonight..Or almost dawn...
I can not sleep..so I take several quizes from Facebook..And here's the result....

WHAT TYPE OF WOMAN ARE YOU?
LOVELY LADY...
You are lovely and caring. You help others and spread out a lot of sympathy. Your life aim maybe is to serve the people. But your weakness is that you forget about yourself, your own needs. All your time is hold back for your friends and family. You are always there for people in trouble. Ready for any emergency. You make a lot of sacrifices just to be a good human. But every woman has her needs, her longings and a destiny. Don't loose yourself in work or curing other people's souls. You will have your own problems in your life. Another problem is that you don't say your opinion when it's right and important to say it. People trample onto your soul if you are always so kind and lovely and helpful. They will play on you. Though you should try to relax more and enjoy your life, you should not loose the gift that was given to you to help others . Not everyone is created this way... You are uniqe and rare!

WHAT TYPE OF A FRIEND ARE YOU?
KELSEY (Namanya sapa ya nih..?)
You are Kelsey!!!! You are beautiful and loving, and you are true to only one man. You have trouble deciding what you want, but when you have decided, there is no stopping you from getting it.

Wkakak...Huahaha...Thank It's a funny quizes..If you have ime, try it yourself :)

FRIENDSHIP

By seeing my students everyday, makes me learn so many things everyday, and also remind me of something in my past..hehehe...It's good to know that my experience with my past can help them to deal with their problems now...Teenage life indeed seems to be the age of problems... :)

Do you remember your own experience?

One thing that I remember is about friendship. I used to have rivals in my life, but they also my closest friends...my best friends (Cha, ingat ga kita sering bersaing bareng ama Galih juga waktu SMA dulu?Aku kangen masa2 itu :p) Yo, aku kangen masa2 kuliah kita :)

And there's also another best friends of mine that live so close to my house, and makes our parents seems to always comparing us. I found out it years after that time, that actually her mother sometime compare me to her, just like what my mother did(but probably my mom compare me to you more often..hehehe...My mom always like you..). But if she was being compared to me by her mom for academic result than I used to being compared to her by my mom because of her beauty and fashion things. And during my teenage life, that makes me lose confidence sometimes...specially when it comes to appereance. She indeed very pretty (you are sist..hehehe...)

The funny thing is everytime I have a crush to a guy, it turns out that boy will falling in love for her..So, whenever I had a crush to someone, then I will introduce him to her.
Why?
Because if that boy turns out to have a crush for her, then I already prepare for it and I already prepare from being heart broken...hehehe...so it's like a test that I made to prevent my heart to be broken.
Tapi sekarang dah insyaf kok sist...ga lagi...suer..khan dah ada Mas Ayok (actually my husband is one of the 3 person that passed "this test"..wkakak..And that's what makes me want to date with him years ago..wkakak..)

Wah kok jadi curhat..anyway...For me Friendship is something that important in my life..

Through the process it will not be always smooth..
Sometimes there's arguing...
Sometimes there's competition...
And at the rarer time there will be huge fight....
But experiences had teach me that friends also will be the one who gives you ears to listen to....
a shoulder to cry on...
A mouth to defend for you...
And the most important thing...to keep you stand on your feet, when you feel lose grip.

So, for my students... You still have a long journey a head...Fill it with a lot of friends, because the are treasure in life. I've share another story of my past during the pastoral care session, right? :)

Fabulous Award :)

Another award....Yipppiiieee.... I got this award from Irhanma. Thank you Ir, specially because I think I didn't deserve it yet...Fabulous Blog...Am I? Anyway, as the task for those who receive it..here's I pass it to other person. The task are :

1. Put the logo on your blog or post.
2. Nominate at least 10 blogs which you think are FABULOUS.
3. Be sure to link to your nominees within your post.
4. Let them know that they have received this award by commenting on their blog.
5. Share the love and link to this post and to the person from whom you received your award.

The blog that I nominated as the fabulous blog are

1. Ardi

2. Mbak Ely

3. Achilles (although probably you already have it)

4. Mbak Risty

5. Shirgie

6. Ms. Green

7. Bang Michael Siregar

8. Mbak Astrid

9. Wyne

10. Chelle

For those that I mentioned please share it also to other friends :)

BUSY TIME FOR TEACHERS :(

These weeks are the busiest weeks for teachers....TIME TO INPUTING SCORE....

Two weeks from now the Cita Hati Senior School Students will receive their mid-semester report, that's mean this week is the latest time to input score and comment....Aduh...aku harus begadang deh malam ini...koreksian masih menumpuk (How I hate my last minute habbit now :< )

Come on Rila...Fight..Fight.... :p

BLACKBERRY....

Blackberry...hmmm...small gadget with huge function...

Last time when I went to Jakarta, my business partner suggest me to buy it so we can communicate easier and effectively....

"HA..AH...BLACKBERRY, MAS??" "Ga usah deh..." that's my reply at that time. "Banyak yang masih urgent buat sekarang..."

I have a principle that I'm not a gadget mania...I choose an item based on it function and not because it is a trend....And I think for now, I don't need blacberry yet.... I have my handphone (although without special fiture) and PGD's laptop that enable me to connect with internet...So, it' enough for me now.

But, today at school...O M G... I saw blackberry everywhere...my students bring it as if it just an ordinary item, something that can easily get by them...hiks-hiks-hiks berarti gurunya yang kuper kali ya...ga mau blackberry. Aduh, ga habis pikir...buat apa gitu ya blackberry-nya mereka..ckckck...Browsing buat tugas sekolah khan juga ga segitunya....ckckck....

TEACHING BUSINESS FOR KIDS

My husband has a dream to own his own business empire one day. I wish it can be dreams come true :D and right now we still struggle for it. I'm enjoying my job as a teacher but I also want his dream come true. So, we try to teach business to Alex very early (mas Ayok idea mostly).... If Alex get used to know on how a business is run, then hopefully it can enriched him in the future. Beside, through it, we hope Alex can socialized well with other people. Coz in business, it involve how you make a networking with others, how you treat others...It doesn't mean we put high pressure on him, it just we want him to have fun with it....Learn to see how his mom and dad earn money, build relation, or maintain something

Semenjak umur Alex sekitar 14-16 bulan (lupa tepatnya sih, pokonya mulai dia bisa mulai jalan sendiri :p) Alex dah ikut bantu usahanya papanya jualan galon...hehehe...jadi setiap ada orang yang pesan galon, Alex ikut susternya nganterin galon untuk para tetangga sekitar rumah (Untuk yang di daerah kampus ITS, ada orang lain yang membantu kami..)  dan setelah itu, Alex yang akan bawa galon kosongnya. Setiap kali Alex bisa bawa sendiri galon kosongnya, Alex dapet Rp. 500 buat dimasukkin ke celengannya...Dikit-dikit jadi bukit kata orang..hehehe.... Dan alex juga seneng kalo bisa masukin uang ke celengan..:D

Nah kemarin juga ketika susternya Alex mulai jualan sandal dan sepatu wanita....si Alex pasti ikut (kecuali kalo lagi hujan atau cuaca buruk..) jualan door to door ke para tetangga di sekitar rumahku.

Hehehe...gayanya udah kayak penjualan kawakan...ketika sudah di rumah salah seorang tetangga, Alex akan buka kardus-kardus itu dan dengan celotehnya yang masih cadel bilang.. "ini ya..ya...ini?" atau "ini agus..ya hau? (ini bagus, ya..mau?) huahaha..kalo susternya Alex cerita tentang hal ini..aku sampe ngakak...Alex..Alex..dia lebih jago jualan daripada mamanya...

Jadi teringat almarhum mamaku...karena beliau juga orang yang sangat persuasif dan jago jualan..hehehe...nurun ke cucunya. Dan rata-rata orang akan beli daganganya Alex..mungkin karena liat gaya Alex yang lucu pas ngejualnya...hehehe....Dan dirumah Alex juga suka tiru kegiatan jual - beli kayak di swalayan, atau jadi kayak penjual bakso...hehehe...lucu...

Prinsip aku dan Mas Ayok, selama pekerjaan itu masih dalam jalan yang benar, masih halal....berarti ga perlu malu khan...Cak Eko dan Cak Man yang jualan bakso aja juga bisa sukses banget..hehehe...

Dan mulai minggu depan, kayaknya pengalaman Alex untuk jualan akan bertambah karena aku akan buka persewaan buku dan dvd serta jualan pulsa dan juice di rumah.

Mohon doa restunya ya :)

Rila, really Last Minute Girl :(

Last weekend I went to Jakarta by plane. From Surabaya, I already left the school in hurry, because the plane is rescheduled 2 hours earlier. Unfourtuneatly, on that day, I also has a meeting with the parents of scholarship students. So I have to left the meeting earlier, and my husband drove like crazy to airport. Thanks God at that time..I really on time..I mean, really on time...when I sat at Boarding Room for less than a minute then there's a call for all passanger to entered the plane...So really on time..

The craziest part is when I went back from Jakarta. I left Wita's boarding house at Radio Dalam around 6.30 and went by Shuttle Bus at airport. Actually at 7.30 I already arrived at airport, and my plane was at 8.35 so..there's some spare time.

But at that morning I also wait for my sister, Rina who was from AN-TAM Office to met together at airport. I missed her so much....So she arrive at 8.00 and we had breakfast and chat until 8.15.

At 8.20 I check in, and the officer said all the passanger already boarding, so I drag my self to run in the corridor. But before I arrive at the boarding Room, the airport officer found problems with my baggage. The said about can or dangerous things that I brought.. That was 8.30 already...

O My God...at that point I was so upset...5 more minutes and I will late for my plane...

After pulling out all my belonging in front of those officer...it turns out "the problems" is my perfume bottle...O M G... Because it spray bottle and they found it as a dangerous item.

So after passed the checking..I run to the Boarding Room, and there's already NOBODY...

They told me to run along the elephant nose, because the plane is already ready to take off...

My heart beating faster at that time...Thanks GOD, they still wait for me...So, when I finished to put my luggage at the cabin baggage and sat, The plane is moving away from the elephant nose. Thanks God I'm able to catch the plane...Thanks GOD, especially when I heard the next plane after mine (which probably I will take when I can not catch my flight..) having an accident at the Juanda airport...

Until now, I'm still give praise to God for it...Although at the last second (not last minute anymore:>) God still give His grace to me. Thank you Lord...Fiuuhhh...What a day...

BUSINESS vs FRIENDSHIP

Although my main job is a teacher, but my husband and I also started some business of our own as our future plan. Some of them are survive (even success...) but many of them also failed :p

And all of this time my husband and I usually started a business based on Friendship and Mutual Respect one another. And so far there's seem no problems although most of the time only based on TRUST. Or if there's problems usually only minor problems..friction between one another... But mostly it can be solved and we also still can maintain our friendship.

But now, I've learned it in a hard way...

The business that we build based on Friendship and Trust, turns out become boomerang for ourselves. Like in bible said ...Indeed Mammon (Money) is the oldest temptation for human being... And now I only can regret it, why in the past I didn't make clear and legal agreement about everything...Why..Why..Why...It turns out the value that I have in life especially about TRUST, HONESTY, RESPECT, and FRIENDSHIP can be easily twisted by another person. I never imagine that a person can do such of things..twisted everything around.

I don't like conflict (as a sanguin-plegmatis person, I prefer to solve everything personally). But for this case, if conflict is the answer and it needs to be refers to the Indonesian law, than I'm ready. I'll do whatever it takes to fight for my right..wuih..kesannnya rek :p

Rp. 1.000.000.000 omzet is a huge amount to be deal with.Ugh...

But, I've try to see it in a positive way...that it is a lesson for me personally on how to run a business...yach.. you could say that It's a blessing in disguise...

Hopefully through this experience can make the business that we've build can have stronger foundation, Mas...Amien

Hopefully through this experience can enable me to run a better business. Amien

Hopefully through this experience, there are blessing and fortune in the future. Amien. Amien. Amien

PPR Seminar

Last Saturday, February 7th, the school sent me to attend a seminar which held in SMA Petra 1
Well, having a seminar full day on Saturday, away from my baby would not be my best plan :p
But the assignment letter has came...
Pradigm Pedagogy Refelection is the title
And...

I felt grateful because they made me attend that seminar...
It's a great seminar (except one part in the prelude-introduction- that makes me felt like in a catholic church instead of in a seminar...hahaha....a person in front of me felt a sleep..hehehe...)

Anyway in that seminar, there are some values that I get...
1. It brings back my motivation to teach.....
Sometime I felt discourage by seeing the phenomenon at school around Indonesia...A kid values the result more than the process...They willingly to do everything to passed National Exam..
For those who came from lower-middle financial background, some of them feel it's okay to cheat between them...
For those who came from upper-middle financial background, some of them feel it's okay to buy the answers or the questions.
Probably I will get problems by posting it, but that's the reality...
And that makes me qustioning my self..what's the purpose of me being a teacher, if actually they can pass it themself without teacher...
But as people said..better light up a match against the darkness than doing nothing...

So here I am..try to light up my matches (which hopefully can light up some candle also soon...atau obor sekalian biar lebih terang :p). I'll do my best as a teacher, which in the process...hopefully I could inspire the others (my kids, my students especially) to build a beter world..to make a better nation..
Hehehe..Am I hoping too much? Am I nuts? hahaha...who knows....

2. I amaze of Pak Kartono dan Pak Katino who have high dedication on teaching and also high dedication of heir students. I salute them. Despite the lack of facility, they able to make great breakthrough, great inovation on learning.
The happiness and willingness of the kids to gain the knowledges is their main concern.
How to make a kids loves their subject.
And how to make the process is fun and meaningful, so the kids will not only concern about the result but they gain some values that timeless

3. That is not only the knowledge of the subject that needs to be taught to a kid, but the most important is how to teach them able to make reflection of themselves.
How the students will able to empathize andbuild their sympathy about what happend in their surrounding..in their world...

4. The things that I also get is about the value it self... Although it's based on Christianity prespective, but actually it's a world wide values...
The values that I thing all people aware of it, but decreasing this time. They are honesty (kejujuran), brotherhood (persaudaraan), and teamwork (kerjasama), respect
At Pak Katino's school 90% of the students is not Catholic or Christian(although it is a Catholic foundation), and it doesn't  mean that they want to make their students to be Catholic...
They just want they kids to love learning, to get and implement the values in their life. To be a better person.
And I thing their values is a common values and still good values for our life.

I, indeed still have a lot to learn....
I'm still learning to be a teacher, still learning to be a good mother, still learning to be a good wife, still learning to be a good sister, still learning to be a good friend, still learning to build my business,  still learning to learn a lot of thing...
I just wish to have enough time to learn all of that. Amien. :)

Breaking Dawn is The Best of Them All

Okay, Right now I'm going to review again about TWILIGT SERIES by Stephanie Meyer...
I've read them all...
From Twilight - New Moon - Eclipse - Breaking Dawn...
And From my opinion....
Breaking Dawn is the best from all of them all...

Stephanie Meyer's writting is not emotionally dragging like Nicholas Sparks, Ilana Tan or Andre Hirata
I'm a weepy girl...I easily cried :p
But when I read Twilight series, only Breaking Dawn that made me cry ( a little abit :p when Bella handing Renesmee to Jacob and ask them to run a way...well family has been values of my life, so it makes me sad to see a family a part )
Twilight series is not full romantic novel, because it has action also...
Usually if I read some romance, there's seems like a bird in my heart..(hehehe..) something twisting my heart...But that's seldom happend when I read Twilight series..

Then what makes me stand to read 3 thick novels in a week?? ( I've read twilight 3 weeks ago..)
Well, there's something drag me to read it more and more...CURIOSITY I Guess...
Yes, curiosity...in twilight series, it makes us strech our imagination...
Just like JK Rowling did with her Harry Potter series...
It's something that makes us in a fantasy world...makes us try to imagine how everything works...
And Stephanie Meyer able to describe everything visually through her writtings.

Two tumbhs up.. :)

In Twilight series, sometime there's unpredictable humour...remind me of Clara Ng's novel (but not many humour like in Clara's novel..)
And in Breaking Dawn, it seems I found my dreams about world peace...
If something that created to be enemy of one another, turn out can be friends and family...
Then how, we as human still againts one another..still kill one another in wars....ashamed...

Okay back to Breaking Dawn...
In Twilight we've know how Bella met Edward..
In New Moon, we've know more about Bella and Jacob...how the triangle love is made and consequences behind it.
In Eclipse, explore more about the love triangle between them... ( a girl can find and in love with two great and fantastic guy..A Fortune if I may say...or disasater???hehehe...)
In Breaking Dawn is a closing about their triangle love, but there's a win-win solution...and happy ending for all...I've really enjoyed my self when I read this...
How friends, family,love, tolerant and respect turns out to be the solving of their problems...
(At least for now, coz I know Stephanie Meyer is ready with the 5ft books...I dunno yet what problem will she drag us in...:P )
Two different things can be unity in a harmony if there's respect and tolerant (toleransi)...
Just like Stevie Wonder song (Ebony and Ivory living side by side in a peace harmony...) or
John Lennon's song
Imagine no possessions 
I wonder if you can 
No need for greed or hunger 
A brotherhood of man 
Imagine all the people 
Sharing all the world

Okay that's all for now... If I have to rank 0-5 , then Twilight series will have my 4.5 rank...You should read it by yourself.
Cheers..

CATS TRAGEDY

If you already read my post "Cats Phobias" then probably you know how I'm frighten to a cat...
Hiii...just by imagine what happend last Sunday, makes me feel horrific.

Okay, it's all start when there's a cat and its 3 kittens come to my house and seems to enjoy and happy at my house. I hate them and I'm afraid to them, but as long as they stays at my garden and do not come to my house, it's fine with me.. Because I also feel pity to them and don't want to kill them or something like that. So, I can live with them, as long as they don't touch me or getting to close to me :)

But when I was going to Church on Sunday morning with Alex, I had a bad feeling (Sheweng my best friend used to say I had strong intuition...:p) 

So, I asked Alex babysitter to check under my car, whether those cats laid down under my car and had possibility to be hit when I drove my cars out.
At that time, the babysitter said that there is no cats under my car..
So, slowly I drove my cars out. 300 meters from my house I heard "miaw..miaaw"
Suddenly, I stop in the middle of the street. I was histerically thought that the cat was inside my car.

I just scream histerically (I'm ashamed if I remember that..)

The baby sitter then search around the cars, no cats inside the car..ffiiuuhhh...felt glad...

Probably at baggage..but there's also no cat...

We still can hear "miaw..miaw"

And then some stories cross in my mind, about my brother's friend who accidently had a cat in his car engine and the cats is dried to dead. And a week later he and his family was burn to dead because car accident with "that car". 

I become more histerical..And I asked the baby sitter to peek it under my front car machine ( I drive visto..), and she saw 2 kittens under the cap...

I was so terrifying, I didn't want to open the machine. So I asked someone who pass us on that street to help me. Then they open it while me and my babayson Alex stay inside my car. I was so terrifying.... Then they took the kitten out from my car's machine.

My son Alex even wiser than me at that time. He never stop said "Maa..epon papa..anya ni pa pus di obil hana"

(translation "Ma, telpon papa, tanya ini kucing di mobil gimana?" "Ma, call papa, asked him this cat in car, how?")

Hehehe..I've been advised by my 2 years old baby son..O.M.G hehehe..if I remember it now, It's feel very funny ..hahaha...

At that time my husband has morning shift, so he can not drop us to church..

And it all brings back my cats phobias again..I'm afraid to drove my car to work because I'm afraid if there's a cat or kitten again...

It's bring my fear back again...

Hiii....
You can say that I 'm afraid to them more than I used to...Hiii...

CATS PHOBIA

For those who close to me, probably already know that I have cats phobia.
Cat? You mean cat the animal? Hehehe..some people who don't know me well probably ask that questions :)
Yep...The cat...The animal...
I don't know why, since a kid, I was terrify to cats...
It even worst when I was a kid. I remember I almost fainted because my brother tease me by put a kitten in front of me...
But it's getting better when I was a teenage...
During my grade 8 or 9, I was have a big crush to my bestfriend's brother. And my bestfriend's family is a cat lover. At that time, I had a crazy idea that if I can able to love cat also then probably he will notice me... (hehehe, you may laugh if you read this sist...:p)

So, everytime I visited her (with some motivation to see her brother too.. :p) I try to touch their cat. Thanks God it was a kitten back then. But although it's a kitten, I remember I was sweating just to force my self to touch it...at some other time even I thought I'm gonna scream histerically.. :)

Hehehe...but at least from that experiences, decrease my fear to cats... For now, I'm not so frighten anymore to cats (as long as they are 1 meter away from me :p)

And for her brother...hehehe..that idea is not working...

At that time, the distance between us like miles away,

But we become closer (I mean able to hang out together) when I was on college and when I already don't have anymore crush on him.. :P

From this experience, I learn 2 things...

1. You can defeat your fear if you have willingness to try (Although probably 100% defeat it :p)

2. Just be yourself when you have crush to someone...It don't worth it to pretend to be somebody that is not you, just to get his/her attention...